AN IMMATURE MIND ALWAYS FINDS WEIRD IDEAS

For a while i thought Let it go,the very next moment i thought I should not let it go.Again,my mind ordered me to go ahead but my heart was pulling me back.At one point,i was totally confused between Yes and No.But ultimately,my defying mind wins the race over my coward heart and at once,i took a quick decision that YES,i will reveal this worst fact of my life to the world which happened at a very early age of mine so called when i was 7 or 8 years almost.Actually,how many times it happened with me,i have no exact idea but still i feel very ashamed and painful whenever i remember that silly awkward incident.Since childhood,aggression is in my nature literally but it's pity on me that in childhood,i could never be able to show it practically.Each time i get angry,every time i managed to suppress the anger within my mind and body specially when someone elder than me used to scold me for no strong reason.But it always kept my heart penetrating and i always thought if i could take a revenge of it from those ugly voiced persons.But one day my weird mind found a worse than worst idea to teach them a lesson without even feeling a pain of it by them.

I still remember that day when my father scolded me very badly and how much i was burning inside.After a few minutes of this incident,he sat down to take his afternoon meal which my mother gave him but she didn't give him the drinking water.Actually,it had been a trend in my family that most of the times,i used to give the drinking water to all the elders after the food being served to them.So as usual,my father ordered me to give him the water.Till that moment,my anger had not gone towards him.Suddenly, a dirty idea hitted my mind and within a minute,i took the jug and a glass,filled the water in it and sneaking here and there,i dropped a mouthful spit of mine into the water and waited for about half a second for the spit to disappear in the water so that no one could guess my offence.Then i gave the jug and and the glass full of water to my father with a sign of satisfaction and relax on my face and heart.After seeing him drinking the water,there was an unmannered smile on my face.From the day onwards,now it had become my regular habit to release my frustration in this way.The other victims apart from my father were my mother,my uncles,my grandpa,my grandma and some more persons were also in this list whom i don't remember clearly.But when i completely left this bad habit of mine,yet  it is a question mark for me.Might be........ i can speculate when i got mature enough to differentiate between the right and wrong things.And this knowledge comes normally in the age of 10 for most of the kids.So,i think same case would have happened with me.

Through this article,i apologize from the bottom of my heart to all that respectable persons who were victims of my great sin.At the same time,i strongly request to all the readers that please never repeat this offence to anyone after reading this article.